Sunday, April 22, 2012

complicated and twisted..

manusia xpnah puas ngn ape yg die ade kan..?btul x..? same goes with me....yeah...smtimes aku mmg xpuas ngn ape yg aku ade....aku pn xtau nape...xyah la nk mukadimah pnjg2...let's get straight 2 da point....


actually...
i found a new guy in my life...
he's cool...he's nice...he's lil bit funny...


but somehow....aku nk lebih dr tu....
aku teringin nk smone yg dekat ngn aku.....aku nk smone yg tau pe yg aku nk.....aku nk smone yg romentik....someone yg ske wat surprises tok aku......smhow....aku letih....xkn sume bnde yg aku nk or yg aku rse....aku kne gtau....can he read my mind....?kdg2...jelez tgk gurl yg boy die blikan die present besh2...bwk die g fancy dinner....make a birthday bash 4 her....bwk die g jln2....pamper her so much.....n propose her wif cute ring...n mcm2 lg la...bnde yg comel2 n suwit2...yes...i do want that....drpd dlu lg....maybe org kate xsume bnde yg kte nak kte akan dpt....n xsume bnde yg kte nk is bnde yg kte perlukan...it's true....juz....smtimes.....aku teringin tok jd gurl yg cmtu.....nk kate aku materialistik pn kate la....tpu la pmpuan skang xmaterialistik kan....cume aku xdela msuk dlm kategori pisau ckur....aku juz...diam....if i really want smthg so badly.....aku ckp skali je...kalo die xblikan....aku diam jela....xkn nk mntk2.....cm trok sgt je....ntahla.....aku juz.....nk guy yg romentik....dat's all......smtimes....words are not enuf.....laki melayu mmg xromentik ek..?hehe...ntahla..aku pn xtau...or they wouldnt care..?aku pn xtau gak....but siyesly.....girls are fragile....mmg len2 pmpuan len yg die nk....tp kbykn pmpuan....diorg ske ble dihargai....ble dimanjakan.....bkn juz skdar kata2 sje....sbb tu ble dh kawen....kalo kaum adam xreti nk wat bnde2 yg romentik kt isteri.....isteri akan rse bosan....sme gak ngn kaum hawa....jgnla dh kawen trus xjge penampilan...kang suami lari bsing...


so guys.....
do smthg 4 her.....


untuk awk....
sy mintak maaf....
tu la yg sy rse.....sy nk awk....awk jauh....sy nk dimanjekan....bkn skdr kata2.....sy nk surprises....sy nk adiah besh2...sy nk awk sndri yg tnjukkn effort.....sy nk sume tu....xkn sume sy nk ckp.....xkn sume sy kne gtau.....n smpai ble awk nk jd laki yg lgsg xreti sal hal2 romentik.........4 every single things that u did 4 me....i appreciate it.....n i'm sorry if i want more....smtimes....sy rse lg sonok juz b frens ngn awk....sbb sy xperlu tok terse hati cmni....sy xperlu tok expect bnde2 cmni dr awk.....ble ade relationship ngn awk.....ble jd cmni....sy sndri rse x sonok n serba slh....sy tau awk try mcm2 nk wat sy happy kalo sy ngh moody ngn awk.....i juz....i'm sorry....u r great guy a gurl could have.....juz i'm da one who messed up lil bit....n i'm sorry....

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

I LOVE YOU...:)

okeyh....dis entry dedicated especially to all of u yg ade ngn aku slame dlm proses ni...;D

1st..
thanx kpd awk yg siyesly wat sy sedar...awk mmg kalo siyes..sgt9 menakutkan...xtipu…so pasni xnk argue ngn awk kalo awk ngh mood siyes…mmg mati la sy kne marah ngn awk pastu…hahaha ;D but u make me realize yang i shud b grateful 2 have parents yang siyesly participate in any of my relationships.. coz like u said...they alwayz being supportive and sgt9 amek berat if kalo ade pape prob....they are not like other parents...yup2...btulla ckp awk 2...sy sgt9 sayang n cintakan ayah n mama sy...:) mmg agak sakit la gak kalo dgr mak bapak bebelkan...tp...diorg bebel sbb satu je....sbb sygkan anak...kalo xsyg...mmg diorg wat bdoh je la...awk gak wat sy sedar yg i shud enjoy all da moments in my life...yup...idup skali je...so idup skali ni la kne wat ape je yg kte dh snaraikan dlm wishlist kte...tul x?hehe...so skali lg...thanx awk..:)

2nd...
thnx kepd awk gak yg sudi utk nk tolong baikkn relationship sy ngn die...tp xyah la wak...sy dh let go dh pn...hahahaha...although i juz noe u dlm mase yg singkat...but u share almost everything wif me to help me 2 get thru dis...*list2 lagu yg ko bg mmg aku xsmpat nk study lg...hahahaha ;D* and aku tau ko leh stop smoking 2...nnt kalo aku ade cara len yg btul2 leh gne utk stopkan penyakit smoke ko 2 aku gtau la ek?hahahaha ;D

3rd...
thanx kpd syg2 sy yg slalu ade je ngn sy time sy ngh tunggang terbalik...each one of u...mmg sgt9 membantu sy dlm menghadapi proses yg cmni....mmg sakit...but dis is life...sakit cmne pn...it must go on....kalo nk senaraikan syg2 sy...mmg byk ler......hehehe...ade yg suh dgr lagu bob marley...hahahahaha!idea mmg xleh blah btol!hahahaha ;D ade yg snggup teman sy wat keje kt lab smpai tgh mlm...hehehe...ade yg mmg sy rse die dh bosan kot dgr sal sy ngn si dia slame 3 thun ni...hahahahaha!;D sorry la neng...ko jela pendengar yg setia...;D ade yg ngah keje2 kt restoran family pn still temankan sy gak...;) i love you guyz so much...coz i noe...u guyz such a gud frenz of mine....although we r far apart by distance...but we will alwayz have each other...kan?

4th

Utk awk yg mmg dr dlu smpai skang mnjd stalker sy yg terulung…hahahaha…sy syg awk as a fren…lebih dr tu sy xtau la…coz we may have our history together…but rite now…I think we juz gud 2 b as frenz….:)

lastly...
to mama n ayah....

nape mama n ayah last?hehehe...actuallly...it doesnt matter which is first or last....but both of u are the reason why sy ade kt bumi ni....parents are not perfect....they have many flaws...they yelling and sometimes marah2 xtentu pasal coz they dun wan us 2 make stupid mistakes over and over again in our life...they juz want 2 see our happy face...and they feel like they are responsible in protecting ourselves from getting hurt....so mama and ayah...i am very grateful 2 have both of u as my parents...yup2....bukan senang untuk jmpe mak bapak yg btul2 willing 2 b as part of ur life....yg org kate...mnjd kwan kepada anak2 diorg yg remaje2 cm aku ni ha....hahahahaha..so..mmg susah ye nk jmpe...coz most of typical malay nye parents...mmg xkn phm pe yg anak diorg yg remaje2 ni rse....they put a barrier or gap which saying i am ur parents and u should listen to me on any of my decisions and i dun want 2 hear any of ur thoughts..hahahaha ;D kan?

:)

u may not b forgotten....but it's time 4 me 2 let u go...coz by letting u go....it will gives a PEACE of my mind....i have no regrets on what had happened between us...coz it's already happened and we had few happy moments 2gether...maybe dis is da best way 4 both of us...coz Allah knows better...:)

Sunday, April 17, 2011

okeyh... final is juz around da corner... but aku xstart study pe pn lg... wahai yohana.... ko nk MAMPOS KE.... ntahla. wei... aku pn xtau... momentum siyes xde.... bz...mmg bz la... tp ntah.... bz slh satu yg menyumbang... maybe sbb bz... aku dh jrang ade mase ngn die... ble dh jrg ade mse.... aku jrg cte2 ngn die... smhw.... aku mkin jauh dgn die.... aku dh xcte2 ngn die.... aku hlg sape dri aku..... DIA..... dia la yg slalu bg aku smgt ble aku down.... ble aku sgt9 perlukan smone.... tp... aku dh jrg cte sume kt die... so final... aku tau ko xkn sbr2 nk wat aku sedih sem ni... untuk DIA..... i really9 need u.... if my mouth shut... my heart scream for u....

MPP...

okeyh... dh lame aku x menulis kt blog ni... kalo nk ditulis....xkan abeh... MPP... bukan la grand sgt okeyh menjd ahli MAJLIS PERWAKILAN PELAJAR ni.... yg besh nye.... leh mkn dinner ble ade event yg grand2... ngn menteri sane cni... dpt mkn yg syok... dpt hang out ngn geng2 mpp2... yela...kalo dok keje 2...mmg susah la nk lpak2.... time2 ni jela leh kmpul reramai n gelak2... time2 len kne siyes,.... muke ketat je sume.... tp.... yg xbeshnye...effect...esp...my love life.... aku bz....die xbape ske..... ble die xbape ske...aku plak stress.... ble aku stress...mmg akan jd tsunami.... die mahukan smone yg leh pjuk die.... smone yg leh kuarkan kate2 yg sejukkn hati die.... someone yg ade sntiase ngn die.... borak n lyn die sume.... somehow.... org yg die nk bukan aku... aku xreti tok bermadah dgn kate2.... aku xleh tok luangkan segala mase aku tok die..... aku hnye reti meluahkan sesuatu bukan dr kate2 yg spontan.... bukan dr percakapan.... dri aku... kate2 aku... akan tulus di kertas.... jiwa aku.... melalui warna2 yang aku coretkan.... aku... minta maaf.... aku xmampu tok beri segala jua kebahgian yg ko nk... kdg2... aku tpk... mane perginya gelak tawa n senyum mesra kte yg dlu.... adakah aku pnca semuanya hilang....? sayang..... kte minta maaf..... sesungguhnya.... mmg kte xkn reti tok berkata.... xkn reti tok berckp.... mulut kte akan tertutup tok luahkan kata pujukan.... jauh mane skali kte pergi.... kte xkn pernah lupa pd sape yg kita cintai.... dengan sape pn skali kte berkwn.... kte xkn pernah lupa pd sape cinta kte dimiliki.... segala luka dan parut yg pernah kte wat.... maybe xkan pernah hlg dr ati awak..... kata2 kemaafan xkan mampu tok pulihakn segala2nya..... kdgkala kte buta.... buta yg awak la berada dibelakang kte... ego.... xkn pnah mengaku yg awak adalah segalanye.... moga tuhan.... pnjangkan jdoh kte.... amin....

Friday, July 2, 2010

Monday, June 28, 2010

hello

I've been alone with you inside my mind
And in my dreams I've kissed your lips a thousand times
I sometimes see you pass outside my door
Hello, is it me you're looking for?

I can see it in your eyes
I can see it in your smile
You're all I've ever wanted, (and) my arms are open wide
'Cause you know just what to say
And you know just what to do
And I want to tell you so much, I love you ...

I long to see the sunlight in your hair
And tell you time and time again how much I care
Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow
Hello, I've just got to let you know

'Cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely, or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying, I love you ...

Hello, is it me you're looking for?
'Cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue But let me start by saying ... I love you ...

p/s: siyes lagu ni mmg sgt besh!!

Friday, June 25, 2010

when it was easy juz 2 b a lil gurl...

aku bace diari2 yg mama tuliskan utk aku time umo bru sethun due melihat dunia...
sgt seronok...
sume sgt mudah...
yela...
budak2...
adatla kene marah...
tp kte xyah pk mslah dunia...
duit..
baju...
makan...
minum...

sume parents yg pk...
juz kte enjoy life being a kid..
explore things around us...
tgk ikan dalam akuarium pn sgt9 excited n seronok...

we learned thru exploring around us...
learn 2 make frenz...
learn what's rite n wrong 2 do...
learn 2 walk..
learn to talk...
learn to eat...
even learn to respect each other...

if can have juz 1 more time in da past...i would love 2 have dat feeling again...being a young gurl who is innocent bout da world n everything...;)