2010???

2010...
hmmm...
owg selalu je nk wat azam baru la...
permintaan baru la..
impian baru la...
boyfren baru la...gurl bru la...
leh dikatekan sume nk yg baru2...

tp...

aku ader 1 je permintaan utk thun ni....
aku nk jmpe FAID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahahahaha...

gler pe agaknye aku ni...
sabar2....
oh tuhan...makbulkan la permintaan hamba-Mu ini...

xdela...
2 mmg permintaan aku yg x tercapai2 lg since die nek kapal...
n permintaan 2 xpnah nk bubah pn even dtiap thun akan bubah angka kt bhgn blakang...

haha...aku pn xtau nk ngarot pe dlm ni...
coz otak pn ngh xbtol ptg2 ni...
t la mlm2 ckit bru aku update...
anyway...
tpat kul 12 mlm ni arijadi mama...
yeah!!!!

tp....
aku xbli pape lg adiah ni...
adei....susah2....
nk tong2 ngan adek2 aku pn diorg msing2 dh sengkek...
hahaha...
xpela...
t aku bli la smthg utk mama....
coz aku pn dh xde idea nk bg adiah pe kt die...
hehe...

selesai...

okeyh....
sudah selesai kuliah aku utk mggu ni...
esok kalo ikutkan ader clas...
tp lecturer 2 cancel...
so aku xde pape klas pn esok...

yeeeeeaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!!!!!
sonok sgt!!!!!!
hahaha...

tp...time ni la aku nk gnekan utk study blik pe yg aku dh blaja...
well..
aku kne pndai uruskan mase mulai skang...
no more fb or ym dh pasni...
coz aku yakin pasni dh xder mase....

yohana masrol perlu berubah..
kne dpt DEAN LIST utk sem ni...
kne start dr skang....

utk cite arini...
aku sakit perot...............
pas mkn tengahari....
ni msti lauk kt ktdi...
smpai skang ni pn aku ngah sakit perot lg....
adei....

xpela...nk taip pnjang2 pn xlarat...
perot x mengizinkan....
haha..
k la...
camat mlm.....

kuliah..

arini dh msuk ari kedua aku g kuliah...
xde pe yg belajar sgt pn...
ckit2 bru...
agak tkut coz sem ni ader 14 mggu je...
n aku dpt rasekan assignment, report n presentation sgt byk je utk sem ni...
sungguh menyeramkan....

aku xske ble dh mlm...
bukan pe...
asal mlm je...
aku sunyi...
dh la faid xder...so lg la sunyi aku kt cni...
roomate aku plak jnis yg xbyk ckap...
kalo aku xckp ngan die...die xderla nk ckp ngan aku..
tp die bek la...sempoi je..

so...
wat mase ni...yg xbape nk bz sgt...
aku mmg xske mlm...
coz sunyi....

aku gembira semula....

tetibe ym die terpampang kt skrin laptop aku...
pnjang lebar explanation die...
aku pk..

"cmne aku nk mencelah ni....die taip xputus2..."

"beb....."

die terkejut....

hehehe...

pnjang kteorg borak td...

n akhirnye aku dpt die kembali...
aku sgt gembira....

"niena...aku mntak maaf sgt9 kt ko....aku tau part of it mmg slh aku...

n aku tau ko pn sygkan aku...

juz ko mmg mls nk tnjuk....hahaha...tul la...kan3??hikhik..

anyway...

aku maafkan ko...

n aku mohon kemaafan dr ko...

aku syg ko beb...

mmg susah aku nk lpaskan ko...

coz ko mmg kwn smpai mati aku...

ko sorg je...

xder sape leh amek tmpat 2...

same gak la nnti...

time aku kawen...ko sowg je leh jd penagpit aku...

(hope aku kawen dulu la...hahaha...

kalo ko kawen dlu...

aku kne cari penggnti pengapit aku la cmni.....

hehe..)"

mlm aku mnjadi gembira kerana die....:)

n aku teringat kt matriks dulu...

kteorg gduh coz die xgtau aku die dh kpel...

aku kecik hati...

gduh smpai nangis2...

smpai sakit2 die mlm 2...

cian die....

pastu kteorg ade gduh gak...

pas kuliah..

kalo xsilap ari jumaat rasenye...

nangis2 gak...

cian die....

smtimes....

i do mish da moment gduh nangis2 ngan die...hehe...

love you beb..n thanx 4 everything my dear niena...4 taking care of me...4 being my bestfren...

sepi...

aku dh smpai upm...
aku dh siap kmas blik sume...
sume dh setel...

mlm ni sgt sejuk..
aku sgt rindukan suara die...
aku perlukan die utk saat2 ini....

hati aku menangis...

wondering...

smtimes....
b4 aku hanyut dlm mimpi...

aku selalu pk....
"t aku dh degree..agak2 aku trus dpt keje x?hopefully trus dpt keje la....coz aku dh plan mcm2 dh pastu....keje...ble dh agak stabil aku nk kawen..."

hmm...
when da word kawen come cross my mind....mcm2 yg aku rase...
tkut...happy....nervous...
leh dikatekan sume feeling 2 jd satu feeling yg xleh nk ungkapkan pn....

mama pnah ckp...

"mama xtau la ko ngan faid ni jd kawen ke x nnti..."

aku cm....nape plak..?

"yela...die kan keje kapal...."

aku phm pe yg mama cube smpaikan....

aku xtaula...smtimes...aku ade gak pk cm tu...mampu ke aku hidup sorg2 t ble aku dh kawen ngan faid...skang mmg la aku mampu even smtimes aku rase cm dh xmampu nk tggung rindu...tp...ble aku dh jd isteri die yg sah..?mampu ke...??

sebagai seorg isteri...n sekental mana pn dia...dia msti perlukan seorg suami disisi die....
n aku...perlukan faid dlm idup aku....

keliru...

pg td....
tetibe fon aku vibrate...
aku menanti pggilan si dia....
rupa nya hanya msg...tp bukan dr dia...
dr seseorg....

"beb..mak aku dh selamat bernikah.."

aku membalas ngan ucapan alhamdulillah n tahniah...

tp...aku keliru....die xsedar pape ke...?xnk tnye ke nape aku dingin je ngan die ke...pe ke...nape aku tetibe senyap ke...ataupn die mmg btul2 xtau???
siyes aku keliru....

dn msg 2 berakhir cmtu je....die xreply pape pn pastu...maybe die bz...ntahla...
kalo la die tau hati aku ni berat nk tggalkan die...tp aku x rase die tau....

dh cm kapel je...hahaha..no la...she used 2 be my bestfren....n i love her...more than my other frenz...now...i dunno...what i do noe is...it's hard 2 let go off someone whom u shared a lot of things 2gether....but now...seems like she got a new me i guess...
2 la susah jd aku....
aku ble dh syg sgt kt owg...cmnila...
cm susah nk trime keadaan....
xpela...

yg sudah 2 sudah la yohana....
ko perlu doakan kebahagiaan die je....
da rest....
ko xperlu nk pk dh....

krismas..

td dlm kul 6.30 ptg aku g mines ngan family...tp ayah x ikut...die cbok dok melawat kebun kesygngn die 2...hehe...biarla die asalkan die bhgia...

kt mines adek aku g amek contact lens yg die bru order...so sementara die nk blaja pkai 4 da 1st time...aku pn g la ajak adek laki aku yg last g tman aku g guardian...nk bli plaster...
then niat aku menyerong bli bnde len selain plaster....hahahaha...


haish...susah gler jd owg ske shopping ni...
even bnde simple2 pn die nk bli gak...pada die kalo xdpt bli t xpuas hati...ader je alasannye...
susah2...

kalo nk dikutkan hati...aku nk bli plaster...body scrub n body lotion...tp....niat di hati ku tahan saje...aku bli plaster n scrub....hati ku ckp..."xpela...t body lotion 2 aku bli len kali..."

then g blik kt kdai contact lens 2...aku ckp ngan mama aku bli scrub jenama guardian 2...hahaha...die ckp "ko mmg...ade je bnde len yg ko nk bli..."
aku ckp..."ala ma....along bli murah pe...tgk...besar kot btol die...harga pn 11rggt lbih...okeyh la 2...utk jgke mase pnjang...."

mak aku pn mleh nk lyn....hehe...
then dh setel sume...kteorg pn blik....

reunion....

perhatian kepada semua kengkawan faid...

faid nk balik either 23 jan or 6 feb...so dlm 2minggu dr due2 tarikh tersebut...korg free2 kan la dri...jmpe die....;)

kalo leh aku nk kengkwn yg rapat ngan die kt matrik jmpe la die...icha...farrah..cidut...shashini...malyque..(kalo die still ader kt malaysia ni la...tkut die dh blik mesir je..hehe..)

imah pn kne dtg gak coz aku tau ko rindu nk jmpe aku....hikhikhik..;p

today n yesterday...

yesterday....

aku baring....then aku nangis.....

"aku dh rindu die sangat9....aku dh xtahan....nape die jauh sgt9 dari aku....dh bape bulan dh aku xjmpe die....msg n call je....aku rindu nk tgk muke die....peluk die....pegang tangan die...adil ke utk aku cmni....sorg2......aku xnk lg idup cmni....aku xtahan............."

dlm mase yg same....aku berfikir....

"aku xptt pntingkan dri....coz aku sorg2 kt cni....n die pn sorg2 kt sane....aku rindu sgt die....die pn rndu sgt kt aku....nape aku perlu pntingkan dri aku....die cm mane....idup die kt atas kapal 2 lg truk dr aku......."

die ader kt filipina skang ni...kteorg smpat msg...aku gtau die pe yg aku rase...n aku mntk maaf sgt9 kt die coz aku pntingkan dri aku....tp aku btul2 rindu kan dia........



today....

agak seharian aku die hospital...
cmni...adek aku yg kedua 2 downs syndrome...masuk hospital ari rabu coz doc nk operate telinge die arini...(arini khamis..hehe..) then tetibe xjd nk operate plak coz nurse xckup kakitgn...so kne lum reschedule blik...maybe dlm bulan depan bru operate...2 pn kalo xde pape halangan la...so ble xjadi...kene la discharge blik kan...so...punye la lame nk tggu discharge 2...bosan gler!!!argh!!!xtau pe yg lembab sgt proses 2...ntah pape...aku tgk bukan la byk sgt owg kt hospital 2...tp lmbat gler...so dh ptg bru kuar...n nk blik lg...jam kt highway...tido dlm kete smpai sakit tengkuk...adei...
dh smpai umah...tgk tv...mkn smpai buncit n lyn fb....

n aku bukak page die....tgk die bahagia ngan kengkwn die...aku rase...aku ni dh xde pape mkne ke dlm idup die...sedih...
actually...dh lame aku sedih pasal die...
memule dlu aku igt lagi die msg aku ckp die rindu aku...xde sape pnah jge die sakit cm aku jge die...aku happy die ckp cmtu....coz aku pn rindu die...aku sayang die...coz die kawan bek aku...aku anggap die kwn bek aku smpai mati...
tp skang......
aku rase die dh x anggap aku cmtu....
mcm2 aku rase...
aku sedih coz aku rase die bubah...turning into someone different....n cm die dh lupekan aku....aku rase bukan aku je...aku rase cm die dh lupe kteorg...org yg pnah hadir dlm idup die dulu...

aku happy coz die happy after what had happen in her life recently....

xpela...aku redha....
aku lpaskan die.....
moga allah lindungi die....

da last week of my holidays...

dis coming sunday i had 2 go back 2 my kolej...
so..td g shopping kt bintang bought all da stuff dat i need...
like alwayz...blik umah pn bwak byk brang....nk blik kolej pn bwak byk barang gak....hahaha...
dat's me...x pnah bubah...
selalu sgt bwak byk brg...xtau nape...

pastu dlm seminggu ni la aku nk bertungkus lumus menguruskan bdn...;P
biarla susut stakat 5 cm je...jnji susut...hehehe...
pg td aerobik...ptg aerobik...mlm td bru je pas men badminton...tp tgh2 diantara 2 mkn nasi...ayat goreng kunyit...aiskem...calsiyum...adei...cm xberbaloi je...hahaha...
xpela...jnji exercise...tul x?hehe...

rase hati..(part 2)

once..

i was lonely..

always feel empty...

never been occupied...

never been filled with love...

once..

came a shining star...

brighten my days, glowing my heart, and enlighten my soul...

you came with soft words, that grabs my heart, n sealed it with love....

so pure, that it can never been broken...

your eyes, whisper 2 my soul....

your words, melt in my heart...

happiness is never true...

not until i found you...

you are my love..

now n forever...

you found me in the darkest cave..

n you brought me into the cherish garden...

you pulled me out of the hideous hell, n u pamper me in the wonderful heaven...

you are my one n only...

with you, my heart can never been happier, my eyes can never will shinier..

my heart, can never been other's...

as it is 4 u...

now n always...

from the deepest of me...

you can feel the flow, hear the whispering....

i love you....yohana....

by muhammad nur faid bin abdul malek...

rasa hati...

u r my love...u r my soul...

u're everything...u're everything...

u r the one i've been waiting 4...

never leave me...

never let me b alone...

stay wif me...

don't ever walked away...

nite is lifeless n day is meaningless

without u by my side....

ur voice...

washed away all my sorrow...

give me strength 2 move on....

brought joy into my world...

n makes me forget everything around me...

ur words....

brings an inspiration...

u found me when i'm lost...

u save me when i'm drowning....

n u enlighten me when i'm in da dark....

there is no more dat i could

ever wish other than u....

cherish each other...

fill da emptiness wif love...

purest of all...

juz 4 u....

by yohana masrol...

tersentuh....

smlm...aku ckp nk citer psal bdak2 kolej kan...ble pk2 blik....mls la....coz 2 nite...i'm gonna tell bout what juz happened...

around 11...i've got 1 msg...it's from him...he said

"Baby...U r my love...4eva n olways..."

aku tggu die actually arini...coz usually...3 days after belayar..die selalunye dh smpai filipina...then ble dpt msg die i'm so happy...kalo ade cermin depan muke ni dh nmpak dh muke aku dok tersengih2 je...hehehe..

kami pn start la bls mblas msg...then i gave dis msg 2 him....

"syg...i love you 4 who u r....don't ever change...

coz da moment i know u...

is da moment i realized u r da 1 dat i shud spend my whole life wif....."

he said...

"Awak wat kte tharu...................

Sgt3.........

Sayang............Saya cintakan awak.........."

somehow....i'm so glad dat i met him last year...n i'm so thankful 2 fall in love wif him...

haha...jiwang plak aku mlm2 ni...

well....

my blog...tjuk pn my life..so....

aku tulis je la kn...

hehehe..

well...camat mlm sume...

p/s : is it true dat when someone hold u in their arms...whisper 2 ur ear n said dat he loves u...kissed u....very sincere...xde nafsu2..hahaha...juz full wif love...u feel like....hmm...xtau nk ckp...berdebar....n terase diawang2an...hahaha...senang citer...is smthg dat usually..susah nk describe...no words can explain how u feel...tul ke...???coz...dat's how i feel each time he kissed me.....n..i really mish dat.........

mlm menjelma...

okeyh...mate ku sudah kuyu...
mau tdo...
esok nk tulis smthg plak...haha...
pasal senior kolej ku n bdak2 junior kolej aku...(aku la 2 kan...;p)
siyes aku rase perang akn meletus kt kolej 2...either perang junior ngan senior...
or perang senior ngn aku sorg je....

pergh...i have 2 b ready bout dis...hahaha...tp slh aku gak...sape suh cari pasal...tp...slh diorg gak...sape suh lyn kteorg cm bdak tadika...konon tradisi kolej la sgt....

okeyh2...smbg esok...hehe...camat mlm sume...

nite2 sayang...hope u'll have a wonderful nite n a sweet dream...mmmuuaaahh....

he's in japan...

okeyh....

i madly in love wif someone who is going 2 b engineer kapal....so rite now...he's doing his practical in japan...haiyo...jauh bangat....!!!but pe lg yg leh ku kate....biarla die...doa ku sentiase utk die...kesejahteraan..keselamatan serta kejayaannye....

juz sedih coz...die dh ader rmbut kot kt sane... siap g salun lg wat rmbut...time ngan aku dlu...alahai...botak je...comot je...skang dh putih...jelez gak coz die dh putih!!hahahaha...xpela..jnji die ttp die...;)

he's so cute...so in love wif him...

geram tgk rmbut die...hehe..

miles away...

dulu...selalu sgt gduh...skang...teramat sgt rindu..

actually...a lot had happened between us...(kalo slh grammar 2 mntak maaf...english aku so2 je...muet pn band 4..) dulu...mmg kteorg selalu sgt9 gaduh...ader je bnde yg die xpuas hati ngan aku n aku xpuas hati ngan die...ntahla...smpai satu thap aku mmg rase nk clash..coz xthan asyek gduh memanjang....so...day after day...we know each other better...start 2 understand each other character n behaviour...n we r totally 2 different person...he is a sensitive guy...yet sgt9 la byk ckp...hehe..(2 yg jtuh hati 2...hehe...;p) n aku plak jnis yg xbape nk byk ckp ngn owg yg xbape nk knal...kalo dh btol2 knal bru la aku byk ckp...hehe..tp most of da time...he will do da talking while i'm listening n laughing...hehe..

die ni jenis kuat sesgt la jelez...aku xderla kuat sgt jelez...but..lately..semakin mnjadi2 jelezku..argh!!!hahaha...ntahla...he's da 1 yg telah wat aku jd kuat jelez actually..coz aku ni jarang nk jelez pn kalo kpel...coz 4 me...i have my own life..n he has his own life too...so...adat la kalo nk jelez..tp kalo jelez sesgt smpai cm nk control idup susah la...but...faid jenis yg cmtu...die jenis yg kuat jelez...n he likes 2 noe sape kawn aku...aku kuar ngan sape...g mane...adei..kekdg letih nk gtau...n mmg rimas memule...tp...dh lelame...aku leh trime...;) coz....i noe...he do care n love me sooooooooooooooooo much....


kalo nk diciter kan lg...mmg byk sgt perbezaan kteorg...leh dikatekan pe yg aku xske kt seorg laki...sume ade kt die...n pe yg die xske kt seorg pmpuan...sume ader kt aku...n yet...we still love each other...there is smthg yg really make us fall in love wif each other...

hmm...there is 1 day we fought...n he gave dis msg 2 me...

syg..kte.. selalu pk...cmne rasenye ble kte btol2 syg someone..kte nk sgt rase..

sbb 2...dulu..kte xpnah puas...sbb kte xdpt pe kte nk...

sampailah 1 hari...sy brknalan dgn 1 gurl...yohana..kte happy...

somehow..kte rase smthg different..juz like i knew it..

dat u r da 1...i was trying 2 deny my feelings coz i don't think day it's da feeling yg i nk..

but..da more i try 2 resist it, semakin kte sedar..

yg kte sbnrnye mmg rase perasaan 2 dgn awak....

kte happy.....kte dapat..pe yg kte nk...

tp...bende x sumenye indah.....................

smpai i brpk...knape susah sgt, ble i da btol2 syg kt u...

till 1 day...1 told me...da 1 dat is meant 4 u..will never b da same wif u....

i sedar, 2 mmg 1 hakikat yg bnar....

finally, i tell 2 myself yg i dh dpt pe yg i nk...

she is da 1 4 me....

da 1 yg sggup ader dlm setiap keadaan....

die yg tbah menahan kerenah i...

die yg setia menunggu i...

die la da one n only 4 me....

yohana binti masrol...

ratu hati kte...

smpai ble2......

i cried....terharu sgt2....

i never realized dat i love him so much...bukan setakat sayng...tp CINTA...n utk mengatakan cinta terhadap seseorg amat lah sukar...coz it involves feelings....n makan masa utk CINTA ni develop into someone's heart...cmtu gak la aku....susah utk ckp aku CINTA kt die...coz aku xdpt rase...smpai satu hari...yg aku dh pasti yg perasaan aku 2 adalah CINTA....

utk ungkapkan CINTA kte...

bukan hanya dengan kata2 or kehadirannya setiap masa...tp cara cmne die layan kte...keikhlasan die...kesungguhan die...kejujuran die...sokongan die...sume 2 diambil kire...n DISTANCE bukan jd satu masalah utk wat CINTA itu hilang...

juz....

even kte tau kte tgh dilamun CINTA....tp...kalo kte ader matlamat n tujuan dgn CINTA yg kte ade...kte xkn leka...CINTA tnpa MASA DEPAN xkn bermkne...sama gak ngan MASA DEPAN tnpa CINTA....

cuti sem..

b4 cuti sem....msti ader final exam kan....so...berhmpas pulas la aku menghafal sume fakta2 note bio 2 smpai xckup air liur mulut aku terkumat kamit n rase cm otak 2 nk meletop dh...ni la bahana study last minute...nape aku study last minute...pnjang nk citer..kalo nk citer aku kne edit blik chapter 2..so..nnti la aku citer la...

so ble dh lpas azab exam...tibe la mase utk cuti sem..sbb kan dh rase SUNGGUH TERSEKSA gara2 exam...so rase cm syok plak la cuti sem ni....

jeng3....

BOSAN KOT cuti sem ni....coz dok umah je...xder ape yg nk di wat melainkan tdo n mkan...(hahahhahahaha!!!!tpu la 2 kn kalo mkn n tdo je..mstila aku mndi...bsuh bju...msak air..n sbgnye la...;p) nk shopping duit xde...kalo duit ader pn...xleh shopping...coz mama suh jimat...adei...sakit jiwo dibueknyo...hahahaha...

so...aku dok umah je la cuti sem ni.,...tp...ader smthg yg ku lakukan...muahahahahahaha...





dpt je DUIT JPA aku trus SHOPPING!!!!

hmm....tpu je kot...aku g membyar utang piutang ku pd ptptn n mama...so...tggl seribu lebih..then aku decide utk beli jam bru..hikhikhik...syoknye~~~ espirit..rm 310 after less..(kalo x lpas less rm 313 0r 315 kalo xsilap...pastu tawar menawar smpai la dpt 310..harga sebenar rm 399 ke 369..aku pn xigt la,...hehe..;p) pastu g survey jam my love plak...survey2 then jmpe la 1 jam 2...nice la gak...hope he'll like it..

chapter 2..

hmm...aku mls nk citer..coz...my life in dat collage sucks!!!

secara konklusinye....i've met a lot of frenz...n all of them are different..they are not da same..n they bring joy n happiness in my life there...

so...kte msuk bab len plak la...hahaha...

new chapter - chapter 1..

okeyh...now aku nk story ckit pasal idup aku kt UPM aka kt KOLEJ KEDUA..(cm xder nama sedap ckit jer nk bg...pelik tul..)

so...1st day aku smpai je kt upm...agak haru biru gak la...coz xtau kt mane exactly nk dituju...yela..upm kn besar...so...jmpe la 1 guy ni...(senior kt ctu kot...) then my dad tanye la we supposed 2 go where exactlty...then die ckp kne g dewan besar wat medical check up..okeyh...so we g la menuju ke dewan (setelah pusing2 gak cari dewan besar 2...) when we arrived..i hate da wheather at dat time..coz pnas..n aku kne pkai bju kurung...adei...rimas2..hahaha...

setibenye di dewan.....jeng3...


hahahaha...aku ngan cepat selsaikan pe yg disuruh...bukannye medical check up pn..tpu je...juz kne hntr x-ray..so dh siap2 hntr..g nek kete blik nk menuju ke kolej..(walaupn xtau kt mane..xkesah la coz da driver is my dad n not me...hehehe..)

okeyh....ble dh tau kolej 2 kt mane....tetibe diberitahu bahawa "kereta xdibenarkan ke kolej...pelejar baharu yang ingin mendaftar ke kolej haruslah menaiki bas kolej tersebut.."
pergh!!!rase cm nk meletop je....yela...dh la panas...pastu barang aku bwak punye la byk..then die kate kne nek bas...ish...mcm2 rase ade kt dlm hati time 2...marah n malu...yela..ngan teddy bear nye...bntalnye...baju nye...baldinye...penyapu la...n mcm2 lg...ya allah...sungguh memalukan!!! tp..nk wat cmne...perjalanan harus diteruskan...

setibenye di kolej...aku pn memunggakan barang2 yang dibawa kuar dr perut bas...
n kt tepi 2 ader sorg abang 2...(time 2 aku igt abg la...tp dh tau skang rupenye die sbaya ngan kteorg je...die jd senior coz die lompat..so msuk U awal setahun...n yet he looks older kot than the rest of us yg sebaya ngan die....hahahaha!!!) die pn bg la instruction ngan aku suh wat ape...aku pn ikut je la....then sumenye selesai....so aku pn g la ke bilik aku....

smpai je bilik...tgk mama tgh tlong kemas2..sapu2..lap2..cian die..so aku pn tolong la...ble dh setel sume...parents aku pn blik...so...touch up pe yg ptt kt blik 2...then rehat2 jap...pastu bermula la kesengsaraan idop di kolej....

it's been a while

wokeyh....dh lame gler rasenyer aku xwat blog...hahaha...


1stly...currently aku ngah study kt upm-major in biochemistry...


n result exam aritu agak trok..eventhough above 2.5 but still below 3..devestated at first when i knew it...satu ari aku nangis...n almost a week aku in grief 4 da result...ntahla...smtimes aku rase aku dh wat yg terbaek..tp aku still terkandas gak akhirnya...maybe aku wat byk sgt dosa..2 yg allah bg dugaan yg cm ni....





okeyh la...let's move on...





pas kuar matriks...aku kerja part time kt kdai mkanan...kdai 2 kwan bpak aku nye...


KYROS KEBAB....


besh gak la keje kt ctu coz aku knal kwn bpak aku 2..n pekerja2 die sume relative die..so...agak sempoi je sume....xderla stress sgt jd nye...smtimes..mmg la pnat..adat la 2...n smtimes..agak bosan coz xder customer nk dtg esp time duit ngah sengkek...hahaha...

ni la aku...n sebelah 2 ila..ila mude setahun dari aku..tp dh lame keje kt cni..siyes laju gler die wat keje...tkut aku tgk..hehe..

aku xigt bape lame aku keje kt ctu...either sebulan or 2..aku pn xigt la...then aku mnjadi GEMOK!!! mimpi ngeri bagi ku...huhuhu...

hahaha...pastu aku pn benti la keje coz aku nk rehat2 jap b4 aku msuk U nnti...so...end of story pasal aku keje...now..kte g next chapter plak...

the one...

sape die muhammad nur faid 2...??
cmne aku leh knal ngan die..???
haaaaaaaaaa.................
ni yg nk cite ni....
hehehehehe.....

there was a time...time 2..matriks melaka jd tuan rumah utk sambutan 10 tahun matrikulasi...

so...
ade la pameran dr sume kolej matrikulasi kt tutoran 1...
aku time 2 mls nk g...
yela...
dh la rmai owg...
pnas plak 2...
lg la mls...
bek dok dlm bilik..wat keje n tido...
lg besh....



tp.....
niena msg aku...
die ajak aku g pameran 2....
memule aku xnk...
tp...
dh die ajak sgt...
aku pn g la tman gak...
yela...
kwn kn...
rupe2nyer...
ader sowg mamat ni ajak dier...
faid name dier...
dier xnk g sowg jer ngan mamat ni...
so...
dier dh ajak dh sume kengkwn die g ngan die...

tp...
sowg pn xnk...

so...
die ajak la aku....

anyway...
aku xknal sgt faid ni...
juz tau name die faid coz niena pnah citer yg dier jmpe mamat 2 kt library...
n smtimes...
mamat ni slalu gak nk jmpe niena time pas kuliah...
ntah la...
aku xtau pe yg dier nk...
n xmsuk cmpur pn...

yg aku tau...
dier 2 cm sombong..
bkn xnmpk aku tiap2 ari ade ngan niena..

tp...
bkn nk tgur pn...
even kekdg 2 aku sblah niena pn dier wat bodoh gak...
so...
lantakla....

so...
smbung balik cite pasal pameran 2...
aku pn temanla niena...
then tggu kt tgga 2tor 1 tu...
dah la panas...
mamat ni dtg lmbt plak...
aku bengang gler ngan dier ni...
dier yg ajak...
dier plak yg dtg lmbt...
ISH...
tolongla...
pastu..
niena ckpla ni yohana...
then i juz senyum cmtu2 je kt dier...
mls nk lyn...
coz pnas....
n pegi pn ngan hati yg separa rela jer....
okeyh..
abih smpai ctu jerla citer 2....

then 1 day...
aku ngan niena g library...
niena time 2 ngah siapkan diernye presentation bi coz esok dier nyer turn..
tjuk pe tah..
tp yg aku igt...isi dier byk fakta..

so...
dier wat presentation dier...
n aku wat keje maths...
time 2..
ckgu 2tor maths kteorg ckgu cina...
pmpuan..
miss tan...
ish....
aku cm susah gler nk pham pe yg die ajar...
dh la laju...
then dier ckp pn aku xphm...
bkn aku sowg jer...
1 klas 2 xphm...
hahaha..
xpela....
dier bek gak sbnarnyer...
juz...
smtimes...
susah nk phm...

okeyh..
kte smbg blik citer kt library 2....
then...
kteorg pn wat la keje masing2...
tetibe....
ade sowg mamat dtg...
si faid ni la...............
ish...
pehal la plak dier tetibe dtg ni...
then time 2 bru la 1st time dier tgur aku....
dier ckp la yg dier g library coz nk study ngan munir...
tp...
bler smpai library munir g study ngan gurl plak...
dier bengang la...then xtau nk study ngan sape dah...
kebetulan...die nmpak kteorg ader kt ctu...
so....dier g la kt kteorg....
then...
dier duk dpn aku...
aku ngah wat 2tor maths...
so xkesah la...
lntak die la die nk wat pe..
tetibe die tanyer aku ngah watpe....
aku ckp la ngah wat maths...
then dier pn ckp die nk wat maths gak...
smbil 2...
sume brg aku dier nk pnjam....
okeyhla..
aku bg jer...
then kebtulan plak ckgu 2tor kteorg org yg same....
hehe..
so..
ntah cmner...
kteorg pn borak2 la.....
smbil2 2 tolong la niena cari isi gak.....

aku realize....
dier ni....
hensem gak la...
hahahahahaha..
truk gler aku ni..
dh ader balak pn still leh tgk owg len lg....
but it's true...
aku ske tgk dier snyum...
sgt sweet...............


so...that nite kt library 2...2 la 1st time yg kteorgh actually borak2...
so..
dh dkt kul 10 cmtu..
aku pn nk blik...
then aku g amik beg kt tmpt beg...dier pn g amik beg die skali la...
aku xsgke plak yg die nk tggu aku...
coz aku xkesah pn dier nk amik beg n trus blah..
but...
dier tggu aku.....
hehehe...
nape la ek..
hahahahahaha..
mane la aku tau nape...
2 kne la tanyer dier sendiri...
then kteorg pn turun tgge sesame n kuar dr library..
aku pn g la blik bilik....
wktu kteorg borak2 kt dlm library 2...
dier ckp next week dier nk kuar dh...
g alam...
aku cm frust kot...
bru jer nk knal..

dh nk kuar...
sedihnyer...
coz aku rase dier cm sempoi jer..
wat aku xbosan w/p 2 la 1st time kteorg borak....

okeyh...
pas kesah kt library 2...
xder pe pn kesah yg menarik..
hehe...
then..
1 nite...
aku rase cm sgt bosan...
then aku mntk la no fon faid ni kt niena...
niena tanyer la aku nk watpe ngan no si faid ni...
aku cakap la nk msg jer...
aku bosan....
at 1st...
aku igt niena nk marah aku...
yela...
aku dh ader boyfren time 2....
tp...
nasib bek x...
hahahaha...
so..
dier pn bg la no faid ni kt aku...

pas dpt no...
aku trus msg dier....
i dun really remember pe yg aku msg dier actually....
aku juz msg...
n aku ckp la aku ni sape...
n during that time...
dier ngah ader kuliah chem...
dier pn rasenyer ngah bosan gak kot...
so...
dier layan gak aku msg w/p kteorg len2 line...
haha..
aku gne dg...
die gne maxis...

okeyh....dipendekkn citer yg panjang...
kteorg mkin baek la dlm seminggu tu b4 dier nk kuar...
ari jumaat last day dierader kt matrik...
so...
tetibe..
ptg 2 dier ajak aku tmn dier g cc..
aku cm...
agak plek r...
coz nape aku???
dier ader rmai kengkwan dier kot...
haaa................
lupe nk gtau...
ade 1 ari tu...
elaun bru masuk...
so dier ajak niena n aku mkn..
dier blanjer...
dri ctu la aku knal farisha..farrah n cidut....=)
kn korg kn?????hehehe...

okeyh.....actually...
a lot had happened between us.....
kalo nk distorykan....
xabih blog ni....coz sgt byk....
n....
rite now...
muhammad faid bin abdul malek ni...
already mine....

aku happy kpel ngan dier.....=)

dh 5 bulan dh kteorg kpel.....

die sgt bek wat aku....

bg support time aku down....

slalu nasihatkan aku...

slalu sakat aku...hehe..ngade jer!!!

aku xtau nape....

aku plg ske dgr sore die......

coz wat aku rase slamat....

tp...

walaupun kteorg happy.....

aku sedih....kteorg slalu sgt gduh....

aku xtau nape....

tp...

ckit2 nk gduh.....

salah aku ke yg xphm dier....

aku xtau la....

btul ckp niena...

kalo time kpel dh asyik gduh jer...

kawen t cmne................................................

aku slalu pk psal 2..........

aku slalu pk....

aku ni yg terbaek ke utk dier...

kalo yg terbaek nape kteorg slalu gduh.....

aku xphm.....

ari khamis aritu....

kteorg mmg gduh besar la....

secara jujur....

aku mmg btul2 give up.....

aku cm....

better kteorg tgglkan dri masing2......

tp.....

aku tau aku xsggup.......

tp....

aku dh pnat.........

pnat asyik gduh.........

aku bingung....

syg......owg mintak maaf syg....owg mintak maaf kalo pe yg owg wat...xckup bek utk u.....i've tried so much syg....kalo u rase xckup lg...i mntk maaf....i tau i xsempurna....mkan mase utk bubah jd pe yg u nk.....tp....kalo xleh....then i'm sorry 4 that....

my true mates....luv 'em....

byk gak bende yg aku cite dlm satu mlm ni...hehe....

okeyh...meh kte smbg blik cite kt matriks 2...hahaha...

okeyh...

after 1 week orientation...

kteorg pn start la klas...

ngan azam yg bru utk study hard aku pn g la klas pg isnin 2...

memule dtg klas... mstila sumenye awal...hahahahahahahaha...

klas 1st time 2 was 2tor chem...

kt tutoran sains bape ntah...3 kot...xigt...

tp...

pe yg aku igt...
aku la owg pertame smpai..!!!!hahahahahahahahahaha!!

then pastu...

sowg2 masuk....

okeyh...

then diorg pn tgur la aku....

owg yg 1st tgur aku is..kalo xsilap...nabilah...
die tanyer la name sape....
aku pn jwb la "yo.."
hahahahhahaha...

die konpius kot!! yela....

dier xtau aku ni cina ke melayu...

nk kate cina...

tp...pkai bju kurung... so...cmne 2...???

ble tanyer name...

kate yo jer....

hahahahahaha...

then aku ckp la...
name yohana...
pggl yo jer...
melayu...
mixed cina...
then...barula diorg okeyh...hehe...

klaka jer....

after that aku cam eager nk blaja...

bak kate lecturers kt ctu....

sebulan due jer cmni....then mula la...dtg klas lmbt...pastu mkin lame nnti....xdtg klas lgsg...

memule aku cm xcye...

tp....

it's true...

hehe...

sbg bukti...

aku la yg cmtu...

hahahaha...

memula.....aku xtau aku nk kwn ngan sape....yela....bru msuk kn...masing2 xknal lg ngan masing2....

then dh lame2 2....bru la okeyh...but still...aku xdpt lg cari kwn yg leh dibuat geng....

so...

leh dikatekan....aku agak loner gak la kt situ memule....

at 1st...aku rapat ngan 2 org bdk pmpuan ni...

NORLELA KASRI n NURUL SYAHIRA SAMSU kteorg selalu wat group assignment sesame...

tp lelame...

aku cm xrpt ngan diorg...
aku pn xtau nape.....

then.....

ade sowg bdk pmpuan kt dlm klas aku ni...she is the hottest gurl kot...

name die FATIN SYAZALINA BINTI ZAINAL ABIDIN.....

die suh kteorg pggl die NIENA....

aku xtau cmne bnde ni jd...tp...

tetibe jer...kteorg jd rapat n jd bestfren...till now....

pastu...bkn dier sowg jer...

ader lg....

hehe..

yg lg sowg ni...

mata die mmg jd tarikan kpd owg rmai...

die nyer bulu mate....pergh!!!!

MELENTIK GLER!!!!!!!
hahahahaha...

n mata die kuyu jer...

kalo xngntok pn...nmpk cm ngantok gak...

kteorg pggl die GARFIELD...hehe..
name die NUR SHAHEERA BINTI SHUKOR....pggl die SHIRE...(korg reti ke x sebut ni..???;P)

n last skali....

NUR SUHAILA BINTI SAFAR...

kteorg pggl dier SUE....

die ni nmpak cm matang....

n sume org kate die cm ckgu...n mmg btul pn...tp...

sebenanrnye...

die SENGAL cm kteorg gak...hehehe..

n...

diorg 3 org ni...

sumenyer gler DBSK....

n sbb diorg la aku terINFLUENCE skali...;P

ble kteorg dh rpat....

since then....aku anggap diorg kwn bek aku...

MY TRUE MATES...

n rite now...

aku mish diorg sgt..

rindu nk gelak2 ngan diorg....

nangis2 ngan diorg....

xtau ble leh jmpe lg.....=(

lupe plak nk include AM n KIPP....
hehe...

diorg aku knal time DINNER DNAMIKA....
mls nk citer pnjang2 pasal 2...

juz nk gtau korg sume yg NIENA n KIPP last2...KPEL...hahaha...

utk tau lbih lanjut....t korg tanyer la diorg ek...;)

antare diorg sume ni...

ade lg sorg....

MUHAMMAD FAHMI...

die ni...memule aku tgk....

mmg cm xfrenly lgsg...asyik ngan fon die jer dgr lgu...

tp...dh msuk 2nd sem...

bru la nmpk yg dier ni agak sengal2 la gak...

actually...

dier mmg bek...

aku rase dier sgt jujur bler owg jujur ngan dier...

anyway fahmi...

thanx atas opinion ko pasl nk wat medic ke x 2...=)

xlupe gak kt SHASHINI..FARISHA...FARRAH n CIDUT.....

hehe....
cmne aku leh knal diorg...

it's another story...
tp...

SHASHINI....satu blok ngan aku...
memule aku tgk dier...

aku tkut kot...coz dier cm ader personaliti die sendiri...

dhla tggi....

muke lawa plak 2...

ish..

cmne aku xtkut...

pastu...jd ajk blok....lgla.....
GERUN jer....

hehe...
ble dh knal btul2....

die ni....

gler2 gak...

walaupn aku xbape rapat ngan 4 org ni...

tp...

aku tau diorg sgt bek sbnrnyer....

n 3 org selain shashini.....ade kaitan ngan sorg budak laki ni...

MUHAMMAD NUR FAID BIN ABDUL MALEK...

hmmm......

nk tau ke..???

hehe...
tungggggggggggggguuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu....................................

my true life begins here....

penghuni blok a4 wing a...time larian kakom..hahaha..

okeyh...
rite now...aku ngah duk atas katil...smbil memikirkan pe yg nk ditulis..(skali lg....haih.....)

cmni la...
meh aku cite kt korg start daripada matriks...then bru la kte foward or flashback dari ctu...okeyh..??=)

okeyh...
12 mei 2008...
tarikh keramat bgku...wahahahahahaha!
xderla...
ni la tarikh memula aku jejakan kaki ku ke KOLEJ MATRIKULASI MELAKA....
time aku smpai jer...
aku xtau nape...
tp...
rase cm tkut...yela...rmai sgt owg...n kete...aku tgk parents masing2 ngah escort anak diorg g kt pendaftaran...
that day was so hot...
kalo xsilap...
rasenye bout 2pm aku smpai...
panas die jgn ckp la....
then ble ayah dh parking...aku pn btul2kn rmbut yg dh bersepah2...(tdo dlm perjalanan..hehe..) then turunla dr kete UNSER ngan berbaju kurung yg tnah itam n bunge kecik2 wane ijau..(kalo describe pn....cmla korg tau...)
after that...
aku n mama pn g la cari tmpt pendaftran 2...
smbil berjalan mendaki bukit dibwh sinaran mentari...ceyh..hahahaha....yela...jln 2 mmg cm bukit pn...
aku nmpk la fasi2 kt situ..then mama pn tanyer..kt mane tempt pendaftaran...diorg kate jln tros..smpai jmpe HEP...tmpt pendaftaran kt dpn HEP 2.....

kteorg pn truskanla perjalanan.....
finally...
smpai gak...

ya allah............................................
punye la ramai org.......................................
dlm pale otak aku....satu jer yg aku pk....

"ish...xsistematik tul pengurusan diorg ni......ntah pape la...."

mmg xsistematik pn.....
susah nk describe....
kalo ader time machine...
aku bwk jer korg g tgk sendiri....
cmne xterurus time 2...

then after dh selesai pendaftaran....diorg suh kteorg g kt satu bilik ni....
agak sejuk la gak ble masuk kt dlm bilik ni...
ader aircond....
walaupun xseberape....(bilik banquet..hehe..)

then...kt dlm bilik 2....each 1 of us...(new student ni...)
akn dok dpn komputer...
then fasi cek2 pe tah...xigt...rasenyer pasal course...
aku dpt sains hayat...
then ble dh siap...diorg bg 1 slip...
kt dlm slip 2 ader no bilik sume...
pastu diorg suh kuar g amik kunci blik....
xigt mane satu yg jd dlu....
tp...
during that time...
kteorg kne amik pix utk kad matrik...
eeeeeeeeee!!!!!
dh la muke berpeloh2...ngan rambut serabai...ngan muke berminyak....ish......leh dikatekan x SEMPURNA lgsg...!!

so...nk wat cmne lg...nk xnk....kne gak la amik gmbo....
posing BAEK JEW ngan harapan gmbo 2 akn jd cntik dlm kad matriks ku...hahahaha...

so....
ble dh selesai sume...
misi utk mencari blik....cari pnye cari...then jmpe gak...
A4.3.5....
2 la bilik ku bersama 3 org lg....
yg at 1st...sume igt aku ni...CINA.....hahahahahahahahaha!!

kteorg pn knal la...
then esoknyer....start orientation week............
mls nk citer...coz xbesh pn...


so.....
kte move on 2 next chapter of my life in matrix k!!=)

ika...effa..ani...n aku....